I can't understand you. Why do you hate me so much? Everyone looks up to you for god knows why and maybe they fear you. SO they just shut up and laugh or take up your oh-so-funny jokes. i don't know if the fault lies in you or me. i just want this episode of hate to end."People find comfort in numbers" Literature taught me that. yes! there are some days when i wish someone would stand up for me, that someone would fight my battles, that Atticus Finch would appear in a *poof* like magic.Or atleast that someone would be on my side.I guess, having someone hate me is something new to me? Something different? i just can't deal with it. I don't know your reasons for hating me, but honestly I'm tired, I'm sad and this ain't fun. You are the only person i know who hates me openly and it would be OK if you just shut up and ignored me (i would be so happy i would cry) but irritating me, bullying me, i don't know why you do it, but please stop. Please!Sometimes i feel so alone in this battle against you but my pride tells me not to be despair, not to cry. When i see your face, i think " why?" , i used to be interested in getting to know you and everyone else, but now i just hope you would leave me alone.
Everyone tells me you are in love with me, crushing on me, smitten to tears with me, "secretly" want to be my friend. That is so sweet you guys! And those crappy excuses ALWAYS make me feel better(laugh actually), but it's such a blatant lie. Love is not a FUCKING WAR. right? I don't know, when i loved, i loved guys who were nice, maybe not cute but really genuinely nice. Or funny guys who DID NOT make fun of me, someone fun and charming. i definitely did not love boys who shouted abuse at me. All i want is peace OK? Or at least won't you SHUT UP about me? Maybe I'm not quick witted or fast or whatever that annoys you but i still get hurt by your meanassness OK. So next time we meet (i sincerely hope never) i will tell you how i feel. My pride is crumbling away because this wears me out, so heck with pride, i hope this works.
We'll work it out. Right?
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